What to Do
Weekly Report 01/02 to 01/08
My main focuses this week were my Original Work and, oddly enough, giving people my invitations to the Research Showcase. Both tore at me in different ways and made me think of what I hoped to accomplish this year.
I really struggled to come up with my original work.. I thought of how every person’s original work mentioned to me was something made for the purpose to help a community or group; designing a renovation to a specific place and creating a design for a prosthetic limb. How could I match that? How could I match that WITH ART? It seemed virtually impossible. So I asked Mr. Speice.
I proposed some changes to my original work; what if I created something focused on learning about jobs in painting rather than branding in art? Mr. Speice helped me come up with a conclusion. I would write a sort of book and guide to becoming a painter. It would cover the main themes I learned throughout the whole year. It would allow me to help those interested, yet, like I, ignorant in the topic, learn some of the basics. The goal is to help people decide if art is something they would like to pursue. From then on I began writing my first few pages: the title page, table of contents, the About ISM, and About Me sections. I also created two drafts of the cover page. Everything seems to be fitting into place, but there is still many hours left to work. Hopefully I will have more time this week to finish it. To be quite honest, after writing the first section I became ecstatic. I cannot wait to finish my original work.
I already lost count of the amount of invitations I have given out for the Research Showcase. Everyone I have given them too got excited and promised to go. I feel great, people look forward to seeing what I will do, it sounds awesome. However, there is some pressure. I worry I will not be able to impress those I invited. I do not know what they expect, but I still think I could fail on those expectations. I am doing something different than most people, and if my research showcase looks weird to some, it could be catastrophic. Is there any way I can ensure I can meet unknown expectation? I thought about this throughout the week.
During interviews or when asked people have always complimented my integrity. They always mention how I am willing to share my insecurities and doubts, while managing to retain a sense of confidence. I have been told it “humanises” me. I am not some random “perfect student,” I am Luiz. I will follow upon this. All I can do, for my research showcase, is my best. So that is what I will do. If I pour myself into this, no matter what happens I will have no regrets, no fears, and no doubt because I will have done all I could.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
Weekly Report 12/12 to 1/1
This break was a much needed one. By distancing myself from school I was able to gain a fresh new perspective. As I eased my way back into the swing of things I was able to think of what I truly want to learn in this course.
I have said many times that I strive to do what I enjoy; however, that is not exactly what I have done this year. I took a practical approach that focused heavily on sustaining myself as an artist, which, although incredibly beneficial, was not necessarily enjoyable. If my goal is to strive to follow my passions, should intricacies really matter? Does this hesitancy to delve into the art world mean art is truly not my passion? If so, what is my passion? Where did these questions come from? Well, ever since my first interview with Mary Vernon these thoughts have been brewing in my mind.
When I first spoke to Ms. Vernon she seemed somewhat unsure if I was following the right path for myself. She almost seemed to be driving me away from painting. By putting doubt in my mind she sparked the aforementioned questions. This intrigued me; ISM was supposed to answer my questions, but it has only made me question my path. Scheduling my second interview was the first step in gaining some answers. Ms. Vernon and I spoke about marketing, as usual, then her artwork and experience, then about my artwork, and finally about mentorship. We gathered there was only one thing that could help me understand my true passion, painting. I need to paint more, as an artist; by painting more I can find myself. Looking into a practical view is helpful, but it does not fulfill in my goals for ISM: to find my passion.
During the break I also worked on a draft for my original work. I thought of the themes of branding. Although I want to take a slow pace, I need to pick it up. Which I will begin doing this next week because after finishing the draft, I wanted to paint. So I did.
I painted the sides of my poster board for the research showcase. It was a real puzzle. I did not want to do anything too “flashy,” since the focus should be my work, not the board. I went with a abstract look, where I limited myself to only the color blue. My original sketch was blue sides on the board; this was my way to remain loyal to that. I worked outside and splattered paint on one side and then patted the other paint. I am happy with the outcome. It looks “artsy” enough to draw attention, but not enough that it will look jarring to those in the showcase.
This break served as a time to rethink my plan throughout the course and to focus on a specific aspect of ISM, initiative. This course has helped build my initiative, and I am proud of the outcome. However, there is still some more room for improvement, so I will take the initiative to paint more often and begin working on my original work.