Weekly Report 01/23 to 01/29
This is a sort of new phase in my ISM journey. I am beginning my Mentor visits and I am finishing practically everything to do with my Original Work. In every way, I have completed the first semester. However, that does not mean I have any room to relax. The reality is quite the opposite.
On Monday I went to SMU and visited my Mentor. She has allowed me to take one of her classes, and despite only being able to show up half the time, I am as excited as humanly possible. Not only am I learning from an amazing professor, but I also am having the chance to learn from other students. This is an incredible opportunity and I am attempting to make the best of it. Although admittedly I am finding it hard to balance this with school. I have been assigned homework, which I know will progressively become more difficult, so I am somewhat afraid. I do not know if I have agreed to do something I will fail to complete. How will I balance school, the homework of the course, and the assignment I will be given? Should I even be afraid? I mean, fear and anxiety is normal. Especially when one is out of their comfort zone, right?
I am struggling to find motivation. I believe it is because I have become lazy. I thought I was doing so well in the course, and in everything really, that I might have gotten overconfident. My reasoning for believing this is because throughout this week I have failed to satisfy my standards in practically everything. My grades have dropped and I am procrastinating more. It is absurd! How did I lose track of my motivation so quickly? I lost myself in my arrogance and now I need to regain focus. I need to improve, as I did before. However, I must also not be too critical of myself. Failure is bound to happen. How I bounce back; how I improve upon it, that is what matters.
I feel the best course of action is to go back to my roots. I need to, as I have said in the past, re-prioritize. This week has taught me a valuable lesson. Arrogance is fatal. I will not let it get the better of me again. No, I will improve. The first step will be to begin preparing for my speech.