Weekly Report 3
I almost danced out of school every single day last week. I have been incredibly joyous recently, but nothing has changed. Well, my reliance on music has. In at least four of my classes I was caught, “jamming” (including ISM). I am constantly listening to music; in school, at home, while painting, while studying, and in the car. I have listened to plenty of genre’s, but they are not important to me. The beat matters above all else, I need a relatively fast paced song that makes me feel, well, good; like that radio on spotify, feel good music.
Music was never important in my life beforehand, yet, slowly, I have begun appreciating music at an artistic level. Not like painting, I do not understand the process or even comprehend the deep issues explored in music, but I understand the emotions the songs exude. In reality, that is all I need to appreciate music; I am curious, though, so I have tried to understand why I feel the way I do and why I want to feel that way. I desperately seek to find music that makes me joyous. Why?
The only real explanation I can think of it that it is an escape; I do not know if it is healthy or not, but I do not think that ,matters. Music provides me with peace; it gives me the confidence to accomplish my goals. Every provides me with the energy to keep working, and, honestly, I lack motivation without it. I can work faster, I will admit, it is a distraction, but it allows me to work for longer. I believe I seek out feel good music because its inherent joyous nature provides me with the motivation I need.
It may be odd for me to suddenly write about music, but I felt it was necessary. Understanding why I enjoy music helps me understand art, painting. There exists a complexity in art that is difficult to understand. I have always struggled to understand it. Why did the artists paint this? What did he mean? I struggle to comprehend this complexity. However, I have noticed, recently, that by understanding other forms of art I can more easily understand the complexities of painting. That is why I wrote about music because it has helped me understand why people feel attached to specific paintings, styles, and subjects. Reflecting over my sudden fascination with music also provides me with a better understanding of myself, which can allow me to improve and better my own art.