Weekly Report 9
As I approach the end of the semester, I find myself thinking about my future. Not about what colleges or what job I will pursue. It has been a while since I decided to pursue passion, so I am not worried about that. What am I thinking about is whether I fear my future or not.
During one of my Church’s youth meetings the Priest mentioned how my generation fears our future; he said we do not want to grow up. Of course, I can only speak for myself, so I do not know if his observation is true. Honestly, I do not even know what my answer is.
Yes, I desire to have a job, my own salary, and freedom, and, yes, I am anxious about leaving my parents and family. Leaving the world I know is somewhat intimidating, but I have done so before. Every time I have moved to a different country I was forced to leave part of the world I knew. I had to adapt, and I will have to adapt. Moving to live in a college campus and eventually into my own home will be similar, right? I do not know. How can I be expected to know? Am I even supposed to? I am clearly filled with doubt, but does doubt equate to fear? I do not believe so. Sometimes I imagine myself driving across the country; drawing people in landmarks all over the world. It is cheesy, but just the thought of it excites me.
Maybe I am both slightly intimidated and enthusiastic about my future, and I think that is okay. Right now I plan to follow my passions and adapt to the changes involved. I do not feel overwhelmed by any emotion when I think about my future. Honestly, that might be favorable. The fear will keep me grounded, and the excitement will keep me motivated. I do not have much of an answer for this weekly report, but for the purposes of ISM I will keep following my passions and planning according to them. I will keep myself motivated and conscious of my future; I mean, that is all I can really do, right?