Weekly Report 19
I realize it is extremely ironic for me write about my failures and weaknesses in this weekly report right after last week’s. I am proud of my accomplishments, but my failures seems more prominent recently. Also, I am not writing this to complain; I need to address the various issues that have been haunting my year.
Writing this will help me cement my problems and encourage me to respond to them. There is the difference between thinking I want to paint one hundred paintings and telling the person in front of me I will paint one hundred paintings. Once I say or promise something to whoever, I am committed to follow through that promise. So, this report is my promise. I will conquer my faults; I will improve!
It is not as if I do not see my faults. They are obvious; the problem is that I am struggling to address them. No, there are no excuses. Not for the assessments I have turned in late. Not for my procrastination. Not for my lack of ambition and motivation. No, there is no room for excuses.
Yes, my major issue is procrastination; it always has been. What differentiates it this year is the extent it is consuming me. I cannot even begin to count the hours I waste away on my phone. Honestly, it is ridiculous! So, here is my plan to address it:
First, after writing this I will update my website; it has been some time. Next, I will create a calendar to roughly divide my day up. I have to set up a time dedicated to homework because I have shown myself that I cannot manage without one. Then, I will write down a to-do list of what I hope to accomplish this week and today; writing down these relatively long-term and short-term goals will provide me some perspective of my progress. Finally, I will create a series of alarms and reminders to compel me to work on whatever needs to be done.
Well, I guess that is not really the final step; that would be following my plan. I need to actually accept and use this calendar. A good way to do so would be to ask someone to hold me accountable. Nevertheless, regardless of how I follow the calendar, I need to consistently do so; like with my paintings. Once I make this a habit I will not struggle to motivate myself to accomplish my goals.