Next Year’s Big Question
Weekly Report 3/13 to 3/19
Last week not much progress was made in regards to my final project. However, I did begin working on my ISM II application for next year. I filled out the basics, but I was unable to write my essay or short answers. That was because I still was unsure of what I want to do next year. To be honest I do not think I ever will be certain about my future, but, as I have said many times before, my choices, in regards to my future, are based upon passion. I will pursue what makes me happy; whatever that may be.
I originally thought I wanted to do concept art next year. I thought since I decided to do painting this year, I should go for my second choice, concept art, the next year. Concept art is definitely something I am interested in, but I do not have the means to pursue it. First of all, I do not have anything like Photoshop or Illustrator. Secondly, I barely have any experience with digital art. I believe this lack of basic knowledge would limit me immensely. I would have to learn basically everything about digital art without the software, which I believe would be stupidly difficult. Of course one could see this as a challenge, and that is exactly what it is. I could face this challenge, but I believe it would be too time consuming. I will be challenging myself next year already by taking 5 AP classes. Balancing that with concept art is possible, but, I believe, unhealthy. It may hurt my pride to say this, but I have limits.
I must be clear, however, that I would, without any doubt, pursue this if I found a passion for concept art, but, due of my lack of knowledge, I do not seem to be as passionate about it as I previously thought. The ISM application seemed like a chore to me. In all honesty, I was dreading the prospect of finishing it. Yesterday was a turning point, however. I thought, for a brief second, what if I did painting again. That was it! That was all I needed. I suddenly jumped with excitement. For the first time, I began to look forward to next year’s ISM experience. I was not just continuing it for the sake of doing so, but because my love for painting motivated me to learn more.
I instantly thought out a plan. This year has been largely focused on my growth as a painter. I have been learning to paint and began a process of personal development. Next year would not be a carbon copy of that. No, I want to do something different. I want to explore another side of painting. Mrs. Mason, during our interviews, referred to painting as a business. That is what I want to learn about next year. The business of painting is something I touched on at the beginning of the year, but I soon realized that before I began looking into that I needed to develop myself as a painter. I needed to learn more about the process of painting before I looked at it in a business perspective because if I did not do so there was a chance I could spoil my love for painting. Now that I have explored painting solely through passion I believe I am ready to learn its business.
I mentioned at the beginning of this report that my choices are based upon my enjoyment of something. So, now that I realize that, for the moment, I do not enjoy concept art as I once thought I did. Rather, I enjoy painting infinitely more. It is my passion, so I am compelled to pursue it.