What to Do
Weekly Report 01/02 to 01/08
My main focuses this week were my Original Work and, oddly enough, giving people my invitations to the Research Showcase. Both tore at me in different ways and made me think of what I hoped to accomplish this year.
I really struggled to come up with my original work.. I thought of how every person’s original work mentioned to me was something made for the purpose to help a community or group; designing a renovation to a specific place and creating a design for a prosthetic limb. How could I match that? How could I match that WITH ART? It seemed virtually impossible. So I asked Mr. Speice.
I proposed some changes to my original work; what if I created something focused on learning about jobs in painting rather than branding in art? Mr. Speice helped me come up with a conclusion. I would write a sort of book and guide to becoming a painter. It would cover the main themes I learned throughout the whole year. It would allow me to help those interested, yet, like I, ignorant in the topic, learn some of the basics. The goal is to help people decide if art is something they would like to pursue. From then on I began writing my first few pages: the title page, table of contents, the About ISM, and About Me sections. I also created two drafts of the cover page. Everything seems to be fitting into place, but there is still many hours left to work. Hopefully I will have more time this week to finish it. To be quite honest, after writing the first section I became ecstatic. I cannot wait to finish my original work.
I already lost count of the amount of invitations I have given out for the Research Showcase. Everyone I have given them too got excited and promised to go. I feel great, people look forward to seeing what I will do, it sounds awesome. However, there is some pressure. I worry I will not be able to impress those I invited. I do not know what they expect, but I still think I could fail on those expectations. I am doing something different than most people, and if my research showcase looks weird to some, it could be catastrophic. Is there any way I can ensure I can meet unknown expectation? I thought about this throughout the week.
During interviews or when asked people have always complimented my integrity. They always mention how I am willing to share my insecurities and doubts, while managing to retain a sense of confidence. I have been told it “humanises” me. I am not some random “perfect student,” I am Luiz. I will follow upon this. All I can do, for my research showcase, is my best. So that is what I will do. If I pour myself into this, no matter what happens I will have no regrets, no fears, and no doubt because I will have done all I could.