Weekly Report 1
During this first week back to school a single thought haunted me, I did not paint a single painting this summer. Yeah, not one, can you believe it? How can I claim something is my passion if I am not able to bring myself to paint during the season in which I have the most time available? Because of this, I decided to do what ISM trained me to do last year, I reflected on what went wrong and attempted to come up with a plan to fix my apparent issue.
Why did I not paint? Well, as much as I wanted to, it was easier to watch YouTube and play video games. Of course, that is not to say I had all the time in the world; in June, I was working on an entire online summer school course in two weeks because I was going away for the entirety of July. I was visiting my family in Brazil, which, by the way, was absolutely amazing. In August, I was more focused on figuring out my college applications, so I was busy. However, I still had plenty of time to paint. I think my reasoning for not painting was that it was, and is, not a habit; when stressed I do not paint, I play video games. That is the problem, and the best way to fix that is to paint more. The best way to grow as a painter is to make painting a habit because it will allow me to continuously work at my passion.
I will be honest though, I did not realize this by myself, Mrs. Leslie, a guest speaker Mr. Speice invited, stressed the importance of making one’s passion one’s habit. As I previously stated, it is the best way to improve and grow. Mrs. Leslie had an incredible story of perseverance and she inspired me to work at my passion; to make it a hobby.
Mrs. Leslie’s speech is part of the reason I have decided to make consistent painting my goal this year. The other reason was the quote I stumbled upon while searching for motivational quote for the year. It is a quote from Van Gogh, and it states, “If you hear a voice within you saying, ‘You are not a painter,’ then by all means paint, boy, and that voice will be silenced.”. The second I found this quote I audibly gasped; I did not breath for a good while. I kept thinking before this point, if I did not paint for three months, then maybe I am not meant to be a painter. Van Gogh is telling me to ignore that voice and to prove it wrong; the only way to do that is to paint, so that is what I will do.
I decided to make habitual painting my mission this year, and I did my best to reflect that in my mission statement. I truly feel that it is the best way to grow as a painter and a person. After finding everything that happened this summer and this week, I can confidently say that I am ready and excited to begin another unbelievable journey this year.