Weekly Report 1/30 to 2/05
Despite my doubts, I managed to gain some ground in regards to my motivation and successes in this semester. I had my Original Work Speech and I finally wrote my 6th interview assessment. Although I still do not know what my grade is for the assessment, I managed to complete it, and the Speech, in a manner, which to me, means improvement.
I wrote last week that I wanted to regain composure and focus. I was hoping it would help me improve my work ethic and my grades. Well, it sort of did. I seem to still be suffering from the fallout of my arrogance. My grades have continued to fall, despite my improving work ethic. However, this will not deter me. This only means I need to continue improving. And that is exactly what I have done; for example, I gave a great speech on Thursday and I have begun working on fixing my schedule. I have pouring myself into my work, and I can see my improvement, but I am still not where I want to be.
Ms. Vernon, my mentor, gave me an assignment a couple weeks ago in her class at SMU, but I only did it on the last day possible. When I was finishing it up around one in the morning, I realized how much I needed to prioritize all my work. For the entirety of the last semester I barely did any homework on Saturdays, and worked tirelessly on Sundays, but this has to change. I need to, regardless of what my friends say, focus on finishing some homework during Saturday. At the very least I need to finish half of it by Saturday; this would give me enough time to sleep well on Sundays. In reality I should strive to prioritize in school. It should give me the leverage to thrive in not just ISM, but all my courses. I am, sadly, afraid to do this. I do not want to give up on my hobbies and begin working more often, but I have to. I said it myself in my Original Work: a painter, needs to dedicate themselves to their art; otherwise they cannot succeed. I have to dedicate myself to my work, so that I may succeed in school. Most importantly, however, I do not want to let my mentor down. She has given me so much, and in return I leave her assignment to the last minute! What kind of person am I?! Honestly, that is disgusting! I cannot keep that up. I must, and I mean this, I MUST do her justice. I must prioritize her assignments. So I will work on doing this. My efforts will be focused on ISM and school, rather than anything else. This will allow me to not only thrive in school, but to, as I said, do justice to the opportunities I was given by Ms. Vernon.