Weekly Report 16
Progress, I believe, is not a gradual and steady increase. Progress is like a staircase; though, not an even one. Some steps are tall, others are long. It may take time to climb these tall steps, but once it is conquered a huge progress can be felt. The other steps feel endless; there is no progress for a while. Nevertheless, eventually the next step will be visible.
Although it may seem odd, this is exactly how I see progress. Instead of a slow, yet steady feeling of progress I feel large lulls where nothing can be felt. I am moving forwards, but not much is happening. Improvement seems negligible and, as the lull drags on, I begin to feel more and more discouraged and unmotivated. It is at these moments where I need to fully dedicate myself to my craft; at these moments, I rely willpower to help me conquer the lull. Once it is conquered, though, I feel euphoric. During these moments I feel intense and seemingly infinite progress. My efforts are rewarded, and it is almost overwhelming.
Right now, I am facing a lull. I am pouring myself into college and school, but feel little progress. Instead of complaining about it, which would further demotivate me, I am forcing myself to keep moving. Even if there is no progress in sight, I have to keep working my heart out. I know eventually I will feel that progress I desire. Maybe it will be during the ISM Showcase (as it was last year); maybe it come sooner, or even later. Nevertheless, it will come, but it will only come when I fully dedicate myself to accomplishing my goals.